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Monday, June 29, 2020

Today is the day I've been waiting for when I will see full restoration of my left eye vision following this surgery



When I first began my journey in December 2019 I weighed 57 pounds more than I do now while also finding out that I had out of control type 2 diabetes with an average glucose level in the 190 range. In addition I was told that I had high blood pressure.  When my retina detached and I had surgery on Christmas eve by a doctor that would find is world known for this type of operation I knew that my God came through for me. 

 On Christmas day, I would find out from this specialist that the surgery was a success and now we wait for the healing to take place.  I knew this doctor did a miracle, but that I had to take personal responsibility for my health by following a prescription of Metformin for the diabetes, and taking a blood pressure medicine. I added two other things into my daily routine which was I went on a 30 day fast from all added sugar and I dusted off my Schwinn Airdyne bike and began a daily (including weekends) riding for an hour while watching a home remodeling show. 

 I noticed as I continue to drop my weight and saw much of my body turn into muscle that my glucose levels also dropped.  This morning for example, my overnight glucose level was just 111 which is a far cry from the 180's I typically saw. 

 I'm thankful for my Lord Jesus Christ for helping me with getting my body which is also the temple He resides in in shape.  I'm also thankful for my bride of 32 years for standing by my side and cheering me on every step of my journey. I'm thankful for my son and his beautiful bride for their prayers of support on my journey.

Today at 1:30, Dr. B. will take out the oil bubble using a syringe and replacing a gas bubble in it's place.  I must lie face down for 3 days and at the end of that time period I will be able to resume normal activity.  As the gas bubble dissolves I will be able to see clearly and use my left eye much better without the Crisco oil effect.

I believe the detached retina was a wake up call for me that got me to get serious about my health.  This week I learned that my new A1C test revealed a new rating of 6.5 which is significantly lower than the dangerous level of 10.5   I owe this victory to my living savior, Jesus Christ!

If you are struggling with health problems I urge you to make a appointment with your doctor to get some blood workup done and then have a candid conversation with your physician about how to attack those problems.  He or she has your back and they want you to stay healthy and well


Sunday, June 28, 2020

We need to be much less judgmental and learn to listen to the stories of our minority brothers and sisters.




John 13:34-35 [Full Chapter]

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

Over the last couple of months I've heard  a few friends ask why must we discuss the race issue in Church, and shouldn't we be focusing on the things in scripture that will make us feel good through the rest of the week?  In reality, Sunday mornings are the most segregated hour of the week as we sit by like folks that are just like us.  I learned this growing up in St. Louis Park which was home to the largest group of holocaust survivors- our neighbors were Jewish, but we went to separate houses of worship and very seldom saw our paths cross.  Yet, as I looked from afar in my complacent self I watched the children across the street being picked on for no other reason than that they were Jewish while waiting to board their Talmud Tora school bus.

10 months ago there was a beating of a young white person outside Target field by several young black people. Talk show host, Tucker Carlson, was quick to say that this was caused by a Somalian gang, but this was quickly discredited. 

Why are we so quick to look at a group of minorities and assess them to be a gang, but at the same we look at a group of white young people and simply say they are good friends? In my opinion, this is another example of systemic racism that permeates through much of our society. Instead of casting judgments of a certain minority group, why not roll up your sleeves and learn to listen to their stories? Why not break out of your comfort zone and talk to them? When the all clear is signaled from this Pandemic, why not invite them out for lunch or a cup of coffee? Minorities want to be treated as equals who feel like you value them for their friendship, not simply as a project so you can check it off of your list for that day. 

Once you get to know and understand them, you just may discovered that the two of you have more common than you do.

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

The recent loss of Mike Veeck's daughter took the wind out of running the St. Paul Saints.

There is no greater pain than the pain of losing a child of any age.  Mike Veeck has made it his mission to bring fun back into baseball, but when his 27 year daughter died it temporarily removed that joy.  Here is the rest of the story that was posted in this morning's Star Tribune newspaper.

SPORTS

Daughter's death last September took the wind out of the St. Paul Saints' Mike Veeck

Only now is the baseball showman starting to show signs of at least a partial return to his affable self.
PATRICK REUSSE 

There had been a couple of phone conversations with Mike Veeck over the previous six months. The first was in early winter and the melancholy in his voice was clear. The second came when I was in Florida for spring training, and the famous Veeck spirit remained hard to detect.

We talked again Friday. He’s not yet back fully, might never be, but this time he was quicker with the humor.

On Sept. 30, the warrior named Rebecca Veeck, 27, the only daughter of Mike and Libby, died from a long-term attack of the nervous system called Batten disease. At age 7, Rebecca was diagnosed with a degenerative eye disease that would take away her sight, and later came news that it was something worse:

Batten is always fatal, with Rebecca’s 27 years at the far end of the spectrum for survival.

In mid-September 2019, the 15th to be exact, Veeck’s St. Paul Saints won the American Association championship for the first time in the league’s 15 seasons — the team’s first title since its last season in the Northern League in 2004.

Mike wasn’t there. Rebecca was in her final days and he was with his daughter and Libby.

It’s hard to be off-the-wall, laugh-at-the-ready Veeck when you’re a wreck after the loss of a wondrous child. He was giving it a better shot Friday, and making sure to offer up the battle cry that has served the Saints since they surfaced at Midway Stadium in 1993:

“Fun is good.”

This conversation had been delayed a day because of a Veeck medical appointment.

“A cortisone shot in the spine for my long-term stenosis,” he said. “I also have a new knee and hip, and when they were prepping me, someone looking at the chart said, ‘And there’s also your diabetes.’

“I said, ‘I’m not diabetic; I was told I’m prediabetic. I’ve been eating healthy.’ They looked at me and said, ‘No, you’re diabetic.’ ”

Self-deprecation. Veeck, 69, is a champ. And he also aimed some serious deprecation at baseball Commissioner Rob Manfred and his inability to come up with a deal to get Major League Baseball on the field.

“Manfred doesn’t like baseball,” Veeck said. “He’s a labor lawyer. All he likes is winning a negotiation. And his right-hand guy, [Dan] Halem, he’s the same. I never thought I’d say this, but I miss Bud Selig. The game was his life. I believe that serving the ‘best interest of baseball’ that’s part of the commissioner’s job description … that should mean something.”

On Monday, the player reps voted 33-5 against management’s last offer, leaving Manfred to set a schedule — 60 games, reportedly starting July 29 — and maintaining the union’s right to file a grievance and seek millions in lost salaries.

A six-team version of the American Association — including Veeck’s Saints — will start a planned 60-game schedule on July 3. At this point, all games will be played in Sioux Falls, Fargo or Milwaukee, cities in neighboring states where ballparks have been open for games for a few weeks.

For now, Saints home games will be played in Sioux Falls; Winnipeg home games in Fargo; and Chicago home games in Milwaukee. There’s a chance — only a chance — the Saints will be able to use CHS Field with limited crowds later in the summer.

Manager George Tsamis is assembling his 25-player roster for the start of “spring training” on Thursday at CHS Field. This was scheduled to be the Saints’ sixth season at the sensational boutique ballpark in St. Paul’s Lowertown.

The successful stadium campaigns in the Twin Cities over the past dozen years have been amazing, led by Zygi Wilf’s ability to maneuver the Vikings into an overbuilt, $1.15 billion glass house to increase his already-hefty annual profits by tens of millions.

Second on that list for me was Veeck’s ability to persuade St. Paul to invest substantially in such a grand ballpark for a team playing independent baseball. So grand, in fact, that MLB’s plan to transform the minors into fewer teams in the best possible facilities includes trying to steal CHS Field for a minor league affiliate — presumably the Twins’.

“I don’t see the advantage for us to have an affiliated team,” Veeck said. “For one thing, It’s obvious that Manfred wants to get rid of St. Petersburg and run everything out of New York … to call the shots out of his office.”

St. Petersburg, Fla., is home to the Minor League Baseball office, still independent from the major leagues at this point. What if the Commissioner’s Office takes over and tries to make the call on putting an affiliated team in CHS Field?

“Get a lawyer,” Veeck said. “The Saints have a lease.”

Monday, June 15, 2020

What I have learned about grief is how damaging silence can be on our mental and physical health

In 1920 there were lynchings of 3 black men in Duluth Minnesota that have gone largely silent until now. In the 1920's there was the incredible burning of Greenwood Oklahoma that was considered a very affluent African American community before whites in the area decided to torch the community and the homes of its citizenry thereby creating widespread homelessness brought about by the loss of their income and small businesses.  Silence has kept the truth from being known about those and other atrocities to black people. Like unresolved grief, silence cause deep seated trauma that impacts future generations of blacks and other disenfranchised minorities.  As I study the black culture, I'm reminded that it was the blacks and other minorities that did the back breaking work that kept our infrastructure going from the slaves who picked the cotton for their wealthy land owners to the migrants picking sugar beets on the farms of northwestern Minnesota. We must never forget that point as we study American history. Below is an article in Sunday's Star and Tribune newspaper that highlights the lynchings of black men in 1920 in Duluth Minnesota and the dangers that silence can have on all of us when we either  refuse to acknowledge the pain we caused, or as a black man having to reconcile that your brothers were lynched. ‘A century of shame’
It's been 100 years since three innocent black men were lynched in Duluth, a city still reconciling with its racist past.

DULUTH – For years, Jordon Moses has been telling their story, evoking their names: Elias Clayton, Elmer Jackson and Isaac McGhie.

Most recently he did so with a megaphone to address a crowd of hundreds who knelt outside Duluth’s City Hall to protest the death of George Floyd.

“It’s never been more clear,” the 29-year-old African-American man said afterward, “to see how the lynchings 100 years ago relate to our contemporary realities.”

Monday will mark three weeks since Floyd died in Minneapolis police custody and a century since Duluth’s long-hidden shame. On a June evening in 1920, three black circus workers — Clayton, Jackson and McGhie — were lynched by a mob after a white woman said she was raped.

Moses has spent almost two years working full-time to plan a slate of events to honor the lives of those men, who are memorialized in bronze at the downtown street corner where they were killed.

“Those lynchings were based in fear and control and racism and white supremacy,” Moses said. They represent the cultures and systems he’s been fighting against for 11 years, since he started college at the University of Minnesota Duluth.

But so little has changed. Moses is tired.

Tired of his skin color drawing second looks from shop owners or security officers. Tired of fielding near-constant requests to provide a person of color’s perspective on boards and committees. Tired of talking about these things and feeling like no one is listening.

Just 3% of Duluth’s 86,000 residents identify as black. The northeastern Minnesota city, known for its hilly trails and sparkling Great Lake, for years tried to bury its past like the ships that succumbed to stormy Superior’s wrath.

Some say the decadeslong unwillingness to discuss the lynchings fostered a culture that allows people to avoid tough conversations about race and privilege and justice today.

“To truly, truly honor those three men,” Moses said, “we need to put in place policy, practices, a culture shift that would ultimately create a community in which we all value black lives.”

A mob ruled

Word traveled fast around Duluth that the postman’s daughter, 18-year-old Irene Tusken, had been raped by a group of black men who worked for a traveling circus after her boyfriend said as much to police.

Officers caught up to the circus train and had the couple identify six suspects. As daylight faded over Superior Street in downtown Duluth on June 15, 1920, a mob of thousands overcame a handful of police to rip the black men from their jail cells.

They held a sham trial and quickly convicted three of them, dragging Clayton, Jackson and McGhie to the corner of First Street and Second Avenue E., where they were lynched.

“Troops rush to aid of helpless police,” the Minneapolis Tribune reported the next day. “5,000 in crowd which overpowers guards, breaks down cell doors and seizes doomed men.”

Yet there was no evidence the attack on Tusken took place. Her physician said he could not find any signs of a rape or assault.

A photo of white men grinning next to the corpses was later turned into a postcard.

That image was on the cover of “The Lynchings in Duluth,” in which author Michael Fedo describes a population hostile to a growing black community, with many residents outraged at the black workers recently brought in by U.S. Steel to end a strike threat and other residents recently back from war and itching for glory.

The event captured national attention and led the Legislature to pass an anti-lynching law the next year.

But Duluthians hid the shameful act in the community’s subconscious, and for decades state history books failed to mention the lynchings. When researching his book in the 1970s, Fedo ran into resistance from local officials.

“You had this wall of silence,” he said. “It was something folks thought should not be discussed or talked about.”

An entire generation mostly tried to suppress memories of the incidents. Duluth Police Chief Mike Tusken, the great-nephew of Irene Tusken, didn’t know about his familial connection to the lynchings until his mom divulged the secret after his great-aunt had died in 1996.

It took until the 21st century for the story to again rise to prominence locally, helped largely by the memorial erected near the site of the lynching in 2003 after a group of activists raised money and awareness about the killings.

Etched in stone above the metal reliefs of Clayton, Jackson and McGhie are the words: “An event has happened, upon which it is difficult to speak and impossible to remain silent.”

‘It could have been you’

On a break home from college in the early 2000s, De’Lon Grant stopped to read that powerful phrase for the first time. Looking beneath it was like looking in a mirror.

Grant modeled for the memorial during his junior year at Duluth’s Central High School. He was Isaac McGhie.

“It’s jarring because it also reminds you that it could have been you or it could be you,” he said. “That’s the reality that we face, that we’ve always faced in this country.”

Grant moved away for college and never looked back. Now starring in a Broadway musical, he remembers Duluth with a mix of nostalgia and reflection on a past when he hadn’t yet fully embraced his identity as a gay black man.

“There is a beautiful community there,” Grant said. “But not having somebody that looks like you in the community, it can get hard.”

Jeanine Weekes Schroer, a professor at UMD, said that after living here for nine years she still wears a shield she crafted growing up under the glare of the dominant culture: “I act like a person who is visiting and who might be asked to leave at any moment.”

Carl Crawford, the city’s human rights officer, said he’s seen numerous talented black people move away over the years after experiencing at-times flagrant racism.

“I don’t hold that against them at all. I get it,” he said. “When I hear or have conversations with friends and colleagues, they talk about creating safe spaces. Who wants to live in a space to just be in one box?”

Disparities between black Duluth residents and their white counterparts are drastic, in some cases significantly more severe than other cities.

Duluth has the second-highest black poverty rate among all metro areas its size in the country — behind Rochester, Minn. — with more than half of black residents living below the poverty line. In a given year barely half of black high school seniors graduate from Duluth schools, fewer than the state average. Homeownership is largely a privilege of white residents, with 4 out of 5 black Duluthians renting.

As in other cities, the jail population is disproportionately black, and residents of color have been subject to racial profiling by police.

Augsburg University Prof. William Green, a specialist on race in Minnesota, said those disparities can’t be picked off one at a time.

“There’s a tendency in society to see problems singularly and come up with a solution that only deals with that problem and not systematically — namely racial tension,” he said. “All these things are connected and we need leadership that will coordinate all of that.”

‘Deterred but not defeated’

Their graves were quiet on Thursday afternoon, though there had been visitors recently. Flowers were starting to fade and Black Lives Matter signs starting to curl.

The unmarked burial sites of Clayton, Jackson and McGhie were found at Duluth’s Park Hill Cemetery in 1991, and gravestones were placed in a ceremony that year. Today a stone bench sits beneath a young oak tree and draws visitors to the stark words on the markers that sit just below the grass surrounding them: “Deterred but not defeated.”

For the first time, Duluth will have a place to coordinate its response to the inequities facing the city’s black population. The City Council created the African Heritage Commission last month at the behest of Janet Kennedy, who became the first African-American council member in the city’s 150-year history when she was elected last year.

With stronger representation, coupled with the ongoing discussions on police violence and racial injustice in the wake of George Floyd’s death, there is some optimism that healing can finally start to begin.

“The hard ask is that white folks have to really just listen to what black people are saying about their experience and assume whatever counterposition occurs to them while they listen is just wrong,” Schroer said. “The burden isn’t to be morally clean. The goal is to be morally productive.”

The Clayton Jackson McGhie memorial has become a gathering place in the weeks since Floyd’s death. Young people have organized daytime cookouts, nightly marches and a community mural project as the site of a horrific crime becomes a place to process trauma.

A crowd of 10,000 was originally supposed to gather at the site of the lynchings on Monday to commemorate the centennial, but COVID-19 concerns pushed that back to 2021.

Moses, a key organizer, will have to make a much longer drive when that happens. He and his wife, Terresa, are moving to Minneapolis, a city where they know a much larger black community exists.

“Many of the people that we’re interacting with today, those 10,000 folks in the mob were their grandparents, their parents, their aunts, their uncles. They shaped the values of those families,” Moses said. “That’s an important thing for us to understand.”

Duluth’s population has remained flat for decades, but its share of nonwhite residents has steadily grown, a trend expected to continue. The 1% projected population increase in St. Louis County between now and 2035 will be solely due to new nonwhite residents, say state estimates.

Crawford, the human rights officer, said “there’s certain things that need to happen” to make Duluth a more comfortable place for citizens of color.

“I push back always against the Minnesota Nice way of doing things,” he said. “Let’s be open and honest and have dialogue to recognize there’s a problem. Because if we never recognize it as a problem, we’ll never really have meaningful work toward changing it.”